Some new little characters, landscapes and such…












































Eight Ball


nov 8

Big Date


nov 17

Old News






Central Texas stream








nov 5

Plan B












Live Oaks



Tryptich:       (Part A)



(Part B)



(Part C)








nov 1




(plein air)    Seasonal



(plein air)  Lago Immaginario


nov 11









nov 2













Battle Of The Sexes






(plein air)  Hillside 1



(plein air)   Ovile   (sheep enclosure)


nov 7



nov 3



nov 6




(plein air)   Hillside 2





nov 9



nov 10



nov 18









Stultus populace


Maybe saying it in Latin puts me outside of this group?

I want to say a few words in defense of statues, which, if you distill their associated  impedimenta to essence, are actually ART.   They required a person/people to create them and take responsibility for their final aspect.  Commissions are also art, so whether or not the artist agreed with the motivation for creation of  their subject is irrelevant.  Artists must often  work to eat, a noble motivation, and this means that sometimes their subject matter does not correspond to personal convictions, much less inspiration.

I live in a country rife with statues (Italy)  …and monuments, and architecture, and paintings, and libraries chock full of very old and authoritarian writings.  Lifetimes of leavings from learned men/women can be found in every sheep field and in every museum basement stacked to the rafters.  Some of these people had no doubt despicable personalities, and some of them undoubtedly committed heinous acts.  Some skipped meals, some failed to wash regularly, some were strangely aroused by vegetables……Well, where is the relevance?  Some of the statues represent people that, in today’s context, offend certain groups.  Understood.  Let’s move them, but after a referendum.

Who destroys art?   In full maraud, groups of human beings bent on correcting what, exactly?  It has become clear that discussing motivation has become impossible, as our attention spans and willingness to employ our higher faculties have been reduced to  three seconds or less.  My impression is that these riotous groups have jettisoned “motivations” for action and proceed accordingly.  After all, they do not have free access to the museums where painted representations of the same tarnished historical figures are displayed.  That would be too complicated.  And the books written about these figures are simply too ubiquitous.  Destroying them would require effort, the result of judicious planning based on the amount of offense caused, and to whom…

Because there is no sense to be made of it.  I have a repeating memory  of orange dust and fists in the air as centuries-old carvings of Buddha  are destroyed by imported anti-tank mines.  Silver lining: new discoveries were made at the site.  Can we hope that important discoveries will also be made at the sites where statues stood in the US?  A wad of gum stuck under the base from 1911?   I doubt it.  Most understood that the Taliban mentality was a perfect example of dogma -over- tolerance.  Or we did at the time.  Everyone who tours Greek archaeological sites appreciates that they have often been used for target practice by occupying armies.  No noses, no arms, no heads, oh well.  So many libraries burned, so many golden objects reduced to bars of currency.  It will require much less work in the future to dispose of important works, as the digital format has that infinite fragility which allows it to go away at will.  Forever…if you can find it all.

Unless it is a YouTube video from 2008 in which someone used a word, expressed a prejudice, made light of shortcomings or touted any one thing over that other thing…and in the intervening 13 years the context radically changed and turned a lighthearted observance into anathema.

My fellow humans!  The kindest observance I can make is that we are all animals.  We learned how to cooperate and designate expertise, and now if a light bulb burns out in the hall closet it becomes an existential crisis.  Our cooperation has allowed us to cultivate, in alarmingly successful fashion, ignorance of anything outside of our field of expertise, if we are so lucky as to have one of those.  Combine this with superficiality and  confirmation bias and same-day delivery and here we are.  Distillation of thought to a three-word headline.

And so it is laid bare that ART is the lowest rung on the social ladder after all. I suspected this when I decided to spend my life creating free exhibitions for people I don’t know.  But  I didn’t know how thorough the lack of presence of  “The Artist”  in today’s “conversation” could be.  Art is expendable, art is cheap, or free; art is only a means to an end.  How inspiring for the artist!  Let me spend all my free time outside of my paid job (nothing to do with art) working to express exceptional circumstances of thought or deed or cultural devastation, only to have it destroyed by the mob.  Do you know what is involved in creating a  larger-than-life representation  in bronze?  It is quite the undertaking.  The same might even be said for building a small business.

But I digress.  I have a metaphorical story of what is actually going on in the US right now:

We are a group of five friends (the population) who has been playing Parcheesi (politics) and at one point a person ( factions including manipulated groups devoid of critical thinkers) understands that  he/she/it/they  will never manage to win the game.  One friend knows that if  he/she/it/they   can instigate another player to be disqualified, (political party manipulators) then the game will have to end and possibly restart later.  Another friend (voices of reason) tries to open a dialogue in order to calm nerves but is silenced immediately by the other players (cancel culture and social network monopolies-by-consensus) who either shout over  him/her/it/them  or refuse to listen, fingers in ears.  So the losing player rushes the table and grabs the board, throwing it in the air and scattering the pieces across the room.  Stomping and spitting ensues.  Game over.

Really? Are we really here?  It was a short jump from making ad hominem comments on social media to physically manifesting the same in public.    All it really took was a few weeks of ‘rona enforced isolation, lost hopes and wages, and a very, very bad orange man.  And an upcoming election.   We learn fast!

Who is it  that does not understand that every great idea is strengthened by debate, and bad ideas are weakened?

Statues are the least of our worries, but even so, please remember the artists who made them.  It is disturbing that in the weeks since this trend started in earnest, I have not heard or read a single word in defense of the art involved in making the symbol.  It follows that maybe abstract art is the way to go in order to assure that pieces last for many years, unless, of course, the artist chooses a controversial title in which case all bets are off.  No titles is better.  Well actually no art would be the best way to go.

Irony aside, can we save the historical sculptures by moving them?  I am pretty sure that the casting molds are  nowhere to be found.


Since many of us only read short articles anymore, and listening is perfect for multi-tasking, here are a few podcasts that I love:

Brett (and Heather)  Weinstein’s Dark Horse podcast

The Portal (Eric Weinstein)

No Agenda (with Curry and Dvorak)

Jimmy Dore Show

The Rubin Report

(episodes of) Joe Rogan









More new pieces, May

“River Slant”    60 x 44 inches, oil on canvas



“Ranch”   30 x 60 inches,  oil on canvas.



“Cliff”   7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.



“Happy Girl”  7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.



“Curve”   7 x 5 inches, oil on board



“Clutch”   7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.



“Cloud”   7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.



“Eve and Eve”   7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.


N- pop

“Pop”   50 x 60 inches,  oil and pencil on canvas.



“Spat”    6 x 6 inches, oil on board.



“Alpha”   7 x 5  inches,  oil on board.


desert storm

“Dust Up”   7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.


“Valley”    7 x 5 inches,  oil on board.

The Joy of Cycling.

There is no other way to say this:

I had my first orgasm on a bike.

I got there because I have always been in love with the bicycle.  First one was a  Schwinn made of solid iron, discovered under the Christmas tree when I was about eight, shiny and blue and obviously meant for my older sister, not me.  And yet Behold!  As my parents were resurrected with their coffee in hand they heralded that the bike was indeed to be mine and not hers.  Oh Joyous Day!  They could not get me to come home for supper.

At ten I spent my afternoons browsing through the limited bicycle section of the Sears catalog, and I  had become obsessed with a  Schwinn Sting Ray, banana-seated purple girls “muscle bike,”  complete with tail light, hand brakes, and a 5-gear shift on the top tube.  I lusted, I  craved, I obsessed, all to no avail as my mother was going through a “don’t spoil yer kids” phase.  However, after a particularly  successful  multi-starred report card,  she softened and drove me to Kiddie City and I came home with it.  It remained my obsession for many happy years in which, lucky kid to find myself in that time period, free-range and pedo-free,  it was my neighborhood pony.  I went everywhere with this bike, and kept it until the late eighties when my father, in some kind of irrational snit, decided to clean the barn and take it to the dump.  I see on E- Bay today that similar bikes are starting at upwards of six thousand.  I still mourn.

Then a succession of largish generic three-speeds, followed in late high school by a slim and essential ten-speed Raleigh road bike.   It was elegant and beautiful; still IS beautiful  down in my basement, where it resides since I brought it with me to Italy in the eighties.  Nothing I am riding today compares to the aesthetic of that bicycle.

However!  Now I am almost 63 years old.  At some point when the kids were little I rediscovered that riding a bike is one of life’s essential joys.  Seeing the boys noodling around on their bicycles, I decided;  Where and when, if not Italy and NOW, would I be better served by the purchase of a bike for myself?  Subsequently I have had a series of bikes, city or mountain or hybrids, until the miraculous appearance of the pedal-assist.

Hallelujah!  There is nothing to compare to (they call it “flow,”  and that covers it!)  the feeling of setting out to get as far as you can, no fear of steep hills, flying along at a high rate of speed for no reason at all.  Heaven!

Many people do not understand pedal-assist bikes, and here I must speak in its defense to all those who make snide comments such as “Oh, you have a motor.  So that’s not really bicycling.”  As they totter off  in  hobnailed tap-shoes, their buttocks munching happily on shiny Lycra bike shorts.  Let me explain.

Pedal-assist means that when you encounter a long steep incline you do not have to be filled with dread, destined to push the bike along until finally, sweating and wheezing, you can rest before remounting.  It means steadily moving along.  Flowing up the hill.  If it is a mountain bike, it means equal satisfaction maneuvering obstacles up the hill as well as down.  Oh, you are still going to sweat!  As to the workout, it also means pedaling a 40-pound bike entirely without help at any speed over 25 kilometres an hour.  The assist mechanism cuts out at 25.  If your average flat speed is about 30 well, you are getting quite the workout, believe me.  It also means flying away from a full stop and reaching maximum speed in about five seconds.  Joyous!

But most importantly, it means racking up the miles.   It means getting out there and using the bike as often as you can.  Thirty pounds lighter, and with an old knee injury that no longer bothers me, I can attest to the exercise the bike provides.  My average ride goes from about 25 to 40 kilometres.  But I am doing it almost every day, and when I get back  home I am still ready to mount up and go.  I wear a cut piece of old nylon stocking over my nose and mouth to avoid eating a ton of flying insects, which, at these speeds, are inevitable.   I recognize  the blank “does-not-compute” expression of people who look at me, a heavy older lady zigging through parking lots and hopping over obstacles, zagging through traffic and racing automobiles at stop lights.  Somebody’s grandmother flying down an agricultural road, earbuds blasting EDM, scaring the sheep.   Look people:  I am having FUN.

I admit this is a bit exaggerated.  I am scrupulous about obeying  traffic laws.  The bike, especially because it is fast, must behave like a car in traffic.  The only trouble I ever have is with other cyclists who suddenly do things without warning.  I am appalled at how many cyclists I see with no rear-view reflective device at all.  How can they maneuver without knowing what is happening behind them?  I have been blocked by tandem teams of lethargic and chatty road bikers, oblivious to the concept of single-file in a bike lane that can accommodate only one rider each way.  I have been pushed to the gravel-and glass-filled outside edge of the bike lane by clots of spandex-ed weekend warriors.  Thank you, and may you soon encounter a patch of pure and unavoidable sand.  If you drive a car, and you have groused at bikers who ride outside of the bike lane, you should know that all the collected detritus of the road inevitably ends up there,  and broken glass, sand and gravel can be deadly for the cyclist.  I am always happy to see the brush cleaner trucks making their rounds.  I hope you don’t park in the bike lane.

Have I convinced you that there is nothing like a bicycle?  Now let me tell you about my motorcycle….

What do they say?  It’s like riding a bike!

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Some new pieces

Match         Mixed media on paper,     28 x 22 inches
Thomas     Oil on canvas,   22 x 22 inches
Tom       Oil on canvas,  24 x 24 inches
Boyce        Oil on canvas,   22 x 22 inches
Hill Country Storm        Pastel on paper,     12 x 8 inches
Red Barn      Pastel on paper,    12 x 8 inches



Reasons To Be Cheerful

Thanks eternal to you, Ian Dury.  This is a nice edit of an evergreen song.   Don’t worry about Ian, he left us long before the Corona Flu, sad to say.

Because there are!

And here are a few new pieces I have been working on, nothing has really changed in this artist’s studio quarantine, which is how I normally work anyway!  The studio is my refuge, and my ball and chain, depending on the mood.  But I am so thankful for it.  Wasn’t it Virginia Woolf  who wrote about one’s room….

What have you all been doing, other than trying to stay cheerful?



“Corona Queen”  –  oil and pencil on canvas,  27 x 20 inches.



“Lady with Cape” – oil and pencil on canvas,  41 x 31 inches



“Fichi D’india” – oil on board, 5 x 5 inches.



“Mixed Signals” – oil on canvas, 26 x 20 inches.



“Snow melt, Arizona” – oil on canvas,  34 x 76 inches.



“Fichi D’india”  (many)  oil on board,  6 x 6 inches.



“The Wait” –  oil and pencil on canvas,  36 x 32 inches.



“Feeding Time”  –  oil on board,  5 x 5 inches.



“The Path Less Traveled” – oil on canvas,  40 x 38 inches.



“Blue Yonder”  –  oil and pencil on paper,  58 x 44 inches.



“Fosso Bufalara” –  oil on board,  5 x 5 inches.



“Big Barn, Tiny House” – oil on canvas, 18 x 28 inches.





























Italia s’e desta!*

It is a beautiful day today, cool fresh temperature and light breeze, the birds are everywhere and vocal, frogs have begun to call in the pond. If it weren’t for the terrible drought it would be heaven.  And then there is the virus.
But how quiet! Quieter than usual, and the lack of tractors grinding, people calling out, cars whizzing by, airplanes overhead is…ominous.
As it should be. It is symptomatic of the paralysis gripping everything and everyone in this time of epic battle against an invisible enemy. The Black Swan holds sway whether we like it, believe it, or not. Our warm and fuzzy interdependence has coddled us through these many years of technological marvels and immediate gratification. How dare we be forced to endure this discomfort!
And yet people here in the south of Italy are not so easily shocked by hardship; they have had plenty of upheavals inflicted upon them; mistreatment by geography, history, ineptitude, poverty and graft. It gives them a psychological advantage.
I am here too, and I will remain here until traveling again becomes as simple as it used to be, hopping a plane over the ocean on a whim and back again. Not so easy now. Not easy for my husband and me, far away from our sons who are just beginning to experience the effects of the virus in the United States. At least our technology has made the distance between us bearable.
And it is going to get worse. If Italy is a bellwether, and experts believe it is, then things are going to get complicated in the USA. People are going to have to face the inevitable conclusion that sometimes quantity, not quality, determines an outcome. I heard pundits today talking about how Italy is in its current situation simply because their healthcare system is incapable of coping,  inferior in every way to the American system. I don’t think people understand the dynamism that drives the Lombardy hub of Italy, nor do they understand that Italy is very much a nation of “pendolari”* who come and go frenetically from that hub constantly. And together with these commuting masses are far superior numbers of people from all over the world who pass through it daily. No wonder, that in those first days and weeks of poor and erratic information, things got out of hand.
You are welcome, world. Italy has provided your best guide as to how to deal, and not deal, with this situation. It really has nothing to do with the quality of care, (cushy single rooms,  surgeons doing laparoscopies from Tokyo, well-stocked gift shops with flower delivery, state of the art billing), but that the needed quantity could not be met in the short period of time allotted by progression of the contagion. Too many patients, too little time, and too aggressive a pathogen.  People tend to ignore that Italian researchers actually are on the cutting edge of scientific discoveries, some of the best being in the U.S.
Those of you who know me will know that I lean hard away from the “progressives.”* But among the things I have learned from living here are appreciation of community, and when government fails to provide, the carefully-cultivated network of friends, family and neighbors can take up the slack. The Italian healthcare system, with all its horror stories and scandals, is a machine that runs on attenuated funding, and lots of humanity. This humanity of the Italians, often denigrated as cowardice or lack of courage, is laudable. It allows mothers in prison to raise their children there. It forgives first transgressions with the law. It allows an extra place at any table, no matter how meager the fare. It allows nurses and doctors to dedicate their last strength to caring for their patients, and necessitates their collapsing in tears when forced to make a decision which turns someone away from that care. There surely can be nothing worse in this life than having to make that kind of call. It is a new, and devastating, effect of the virus.
But here in small town Italy we are getting along. The streets are deserted, and aside from the one family member permitted to buy groceries, no one can be out and about. But the supermarkets and pharmacies are stocked. Gas stations are open and I can ride my bike as long as I don’t go through town. If you are stopped, you will be greeted by a smiling officer with a mask, who will invite you to try and not venture out unless absolutely necessary. Trucks with megaphones crawl the streets at six PM, curfew, to warn people to stay in their homes.
And sometimes, as happened the other night, one might hear a frail orchestral version of the national anthem wafting from the quarantine trucks, music which seems to be joined by a tenuous accompaniment…which grows in strength and volume until the town stridently vocalizes its defiance, its faith and its grief— in song.

It isn’t perfect, but it is human.


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“A Little Slice of Heaven”  oil


*1   Italy has woken!

*2 commuters
*3 Where “progressive” is intended to mean “forward-moving,”  but actually means (simply) moving,  heedless of  trajectory or consequences.

OK, “we” are going to discuss pizza.*

To begin, just assume that I have already distilled my rant down to the essentials, which follow:

  1.   Pizza dough can vary, in texture, in flavor, in ingredients.   There are so many good ones here in the US that I cannot criticize.  The purebred Italians in my family even enjoy Pizza Hut, on nights when they don’t really feel like chewing.
  2.  Mozzarella would be SO much better if they would skip the “low moisture” concept, whatever that means.  Best I can tell, it means we are going to substitute the closest industrial thing to Scamorza and just call it mozzarella.  Because  real mozzarella is mostly liquid, and gives the pizza its moisture in the very hot oven.  This is the difference between rubbery chewy melted cheese, and delicately tender, flavorful melted mozzarella, whether cow, buffalo or goat.
  3. Toppings?   How about squid, or mussels in the shell?  (Italy)  Or  french fries and hot dogs? (Italy)  Tuna and onion?(my favorite, Italy)  Potato? (Italy)  Or just whatever leftovers you have brought from home to the pizzeria and thrown on there? (Italy).   I am not immune to the charms of a luscious sugary cinnamon-apple concoction either, if cooked to perfection.  (Definitely NOT Italy).   But you can keep your pineapple (USA) and your chicken (USA) and your Canadian bacon (America, one presumes) but I don’t want to be interpreted as the food police so: whatever.  Put some kale, peanuts and corn on it if you want, but I am not eating that thang.
  4. The major problem, above all the others (to my mind):   Why…  good Lord!  …do pizzas of every type here in the US have something resembling cooked tomato sauce on them?  Something called “marinara” (what the heck is that??)  A cooked tomato stew that could as easily go on pasta or be used for their version of lasagne or a base for stuffed eggplant?  And why, oh why, does this sauce contain sugar and dusty shelf-scrapings that pose as spices?   Uck.    Italy:   Crushed tomato, lightly  pureed, and a dash of salt.  That’s it.  Raw, never cooked.  THAT is what goes onto the dough before it is tricked out with all the other stuff.  Good olive oil  (if you can find any)  over the final build, and into the HOT oven it goes.  Wood, gas or electric, as long as it is hot enough.  If you want some basil then for heaven’s sake, go get some fresh leaves and tear them onto your dough, tomato, mozzarella, and whatever else.
  5. OK.   As I write this I am digesting the pizza I had at a popular pizza-and-beer place, along with a salad, one thing that the Americans excel at creating.  Nothing like a good Caesar salad in “Murica!”  And good beer!   But after that pizza,  I am going to have to brush my teeth to get rid of the
  6.  heavy,
  7.  cloying,
  8.  sugary,
  9.  overcooked aftertaste.

*…and everybody has opinions.

230 Super Heroes Day

“Super Heroes’ Day”   (oil on canvas)

Another article about southern Italy


My sister sent me another article, a travel piece, in the New York Times: another visitor  comes to the south of Italy for a genuine adventure.

I am disgruntled, strangely annoyed at the tone and the usual observations it makes about the place.

It mentions that Molise is the second least-populated region of Italy.   The least-populated is Basilicata, where I live.  Basilicata and Molise have a lot in common on many levels; the lack of tourism, (a blessing in my eyes, but then I don’t have to try to make my living from tourism),  the lack of economic vibrancy, the difficult terrain with not much infrastructure.    These are a few of the obvious similarities: both regions “suffer” from being little-known by the casual visitor.


Reading this article, and another about Matera which recently came out,  (see below)         gives me the impression that I am being schooled about the goings-on of a population in a petri dish;  it reminds me of the notes jotted down by travelers from centuries past of indigenous populations and their quaint customs.   Blessed in their ignorance, with interest primarily in the simple pleasures of the gastronomic palette and strolling on Sunday, the local traditions rarely changing due to outside influences.  How lucky for the world traveler, how charming that this area of the world has been preserved thanks to ignorance and lack of imagination, weighed down by the ball and chain of tradition for so long, preserved for the sightseer’s pleasure.    Shucking and jiving in a dream world of homemade pasta and sausages, religious celebrations and traveling circuses.   Happy  negroes indeed.

OK, maybe I am being a bit drastic.

At the same time that my gut reaction to these articles is negative, I also have been known to wax poetic with this blog, so there is that, too.  I agree wholeheartedly with the mayor of Matera, who voices what so many of the locals here think about the influx of tourists.  It is only logical that if you have a limpid pool of pure water, the arrival of thousands of frogs at once will extinguish its appeal forever.

Sometimes it seems as if there is a turf war among people who travel, each person who spends more than a week in some far place  expounding on how they have been allowed an inclusive picture that OTHER visitors are not privy to.  “I discovered it!”  Indeed, just tell the inhabitants…One need only read through the comments on this type of article to see that there is a clamoring status war to “discover” some new part of the world;  first.   I read books sometimes,  about Americans or British who move to Italy,  and they are inevitably filled with incorrect translations or blatantly inaccurate observations.  One in particular, something having to do with renovating a property as I recall, was laughable in its lack of understanding.  However, I have been here near Bernalda, with the indigenous population (HA!) for almost 40 years.  I know a thing or two.

There are other visitors who have stayed here, I know some, and I am happy they have found their little niche as I have.  But without exception, these people seem not  to comprehend what is going on around them to any extent.  I am envious of them because they can still see the wonderful town square with its quaint benches and old men whittling away their time, accept with graciousness the tidbits offered, and enjoy prolonging their initial impression of travelogue  Italy indefinitely.   How lovely!

And it is lovely.

But do they know that among those men there are some who have been castigated and shunned by their wives and neighbors for being different, or for daring to tell the truth about  someone important?   Among them is  the one who engages in pedophilia with various unlucky schoolboys while their parents turn a blind eye because of the compensation offered.   Also the one who pretends to be civil when later he will refuse to pay the rent, again,  to his landlord who has no recourse.  There might be the guy who carted off an entire farm full of animals because his private loan’s exorbitant interest was too much for the family.   I know where the Nazis executed partisans in that doorway, and where the partisans lynched a Nazi sympathizer.    I know that once there were tall trees that were ripped out to make room for grass which could never survive, because traditionally trees and sod are planted but the Socialist hierarchy assures that watering will be nobody’s job.   I know that later this year there will be, yet again, protests here because people are held hostage by European Union regulations that threaten to strangle local businesses.  I know how some immigrants are mistreated, and how others behave abominably, and I know that most locals would prefer that they don’t come at all.  I know that the cancer rate here is unnaturally high, and no one knows why, although the region has been used as a toxic waste dumping ground for generations.  I know that since recycling has eliminated the dumpsters, there is no hope of finding that litter of puppies that someone has–again–thrown away.  But you will not be able to avoid the piles of refuse in every stopping place.  I know that the corner market stall with all that beautiful produce could very well be selling you vegetables and fruit that is so impregnated with toxins that you would do better to not consume it.  I know that the farmers who grew the produce will die early because they refused to take any precautions when dealing with pesticides and herbicides which are sold and consumed like water in big unlabeled plastic bottles.  I know that the same person who exchanges a warm greeting  may later tell her neighbor a devastating untruth about her friend for no reason other than malice that in a small town such as this can be a communal pastime.  I know that every kindness, every generous gesture or helpful offer will go down in “the book” for posterity, and close tabs will be kept.  Debts will be payed back, one way or another, eventually.   I know these things because I am part of it, I understand the dialect perfectly, as well as Italian.  I have been absorbed into the fabric,  and therein lies the difference.


I can go weeks and weeks without speaking English to anyone, although the web has upended any illusions of isolation, one of the factors that made this place so fascinating at first.

So don’t tell me how “it is in Italy,”   because I know, at least in this tiny part of it.   Perhaps most importantly, do tourists here know that even in this little paese  of 12,000 souls, the population is well-supplied with world travelers, people who are off at least twice a year or more to Japan, to Los Angeles or Boston, to South America, to Russia, to China, on cruises, to do research at prestigious universities, to study  foreign languages?

I remember how it used to be for me here, immersed in archaeological work and planning my next escapade in order to stay a little longer.  But I have lost that shiny mirage, the impression of simplicity that was my pleasure for many years in coming back over here, feeling that this world was indeed a miracle of visible riches, and the substance under that surface was all good.  I suppose I didn’t care so much about the substrate reality because of the richness of the light and landscape.  It IS a fantastic landscape, and it still has much to offer, but for me it must be absorbed with all the unfortunate  history, and reality,  that comes with it.  Ask me if you really want to know…or better yet, ask my husband and kids: they were all born here!  And in all probability, I still don’t know what is really going on…